No 7. Trust the process they say
Synchronicities, October 16th, +Updates on holy grails & research, +what's in my tabs
Lately, my social media algorithm has been targeting me with memes and tiktoks of people making fun of the feeling you get when you see Angel numbers. Which is weird, cause I’ve been seeing hella angel numbers.
If you don’t know what they are it’s a series of numbers that supposedly have different meanings like 111, 333, 444, 1234, 777. They show up on clocks, on license plates, barcodes, wherever you look you might start noticing those numbers and the general gist is that it is a sign. The numbers themselves can apparently mean different things. Whether the woo woo is your thing or not, have you ever had moments where you are waking up to synchronicities?
It’s happening to me right now and I’m curious where we’re gonna go.
I have a fascination with numerology and the idea of numbers having bigger meanings. I mean nature and the universe is quite mathematical. From fractals to Fibonacci’s sequence.
Since I learned about numerology, I have been consistently testing it with people’s address’. I am a certified Feng Shui consultant and there is rather numerological aspect to part of the practice through the idea of flying stars, aka the astrology of a house, to 9 ki which is sort of like your Feng Shui astrology. Anyways, in traditional numerology there is this idea that even our address numbers signify the kind of house it is. So, I’ll always ask someone what their house number or their apartment number is and see if it matches up with the numerology interpretation of their home… so far it’s been about 90% correct. So before we get into the synchronicities (or after) comment below and let’s test it out for fun!
Anyways, let’s get to it.
Synchronicities keep happening to me. Lately, I have been feeling disconnected from my usual habits of journaling, meditation, and throwing down a few tarot cards. When I hit rock bottom, my daily habits and inner voice helped me navigate through all of my healing. It’s a muscle that has felt incredibly strong the last few years. But lately, so much of my life has shifted less from thinking and into the nuts and bolts of moving through daily life trying to survive the ability to know lots about the world’s suffering and machinations (European parliamentary elections, India elections, Project 2025, Gaza, Sudan, DRC, everything).
Somehow in the mix of a demanding full time job, I haven’t been doing any of the usual stuff. I haven’t been doing really anything wellness-y apart from strength training classes and trying to keep my glucose levels in check.
But somehow the universe might be trying to throw a rock at my window to let me know it’s still got my back. The most glaring and random sign is that my birthday keeps popping up literally everywhere. It’s something that has never really happened before apart from one of my best friends sharing the same day.
But honestly, at this point everyone might just be in my own personal universe a la Truman Show for all I know…
I was born October 16th. These were the three big ones.
The first big one that kicked it off was when a close friend told me of their pregnancy — due date: October 16th.
The second big one was the surprise I got when I was at Cannes. Our company had a film there at Directors Fortnight and I had watched a few cuts of the film before. But at the premier, I finally noticed something big. The story takes place all on one day and somehow I just never noticed when they wrote the day it takes place on — October 16th.
Like…?!
Then, thirdly, the week following Cannes I extended my trip to live out a personal dream of attending the F1 Monaco Grand Prix. I’m a big F1 fan for the politics, drama, and racing. It was an epic race that started with a really scary crash where thankfully everyone was safe and ended with Charles Leclerc a born and raised Monacan winning. In winning, he broke a Monaco F1 curse where a local driver hadn’t won since the 1930s. In the cab back to our hotel, I just started laughing. I opened up google ready to go down the rabbit hole about his childhood and there it was right there…. his birthday - October 16th.
Three big ones that stood out amongst the sea of these angel numbers.
Last week in London, I was at the nail salon my gel polish taken off (I can’t wear gel polish when I’m home or else I’ll rip it off if it gets too grown out and the nail salons in the Catskills are just not good).
I was waiting for my hot pink paint to dry when I looked up at the rows of all the different polishes. Each polish had a number up to about 500 different polishes.
Some were turned towards the rest of the salon, but they had been haphazardly displayed. As soon as I looked up my eyes were greeted with nail polish 111, then I looked down and looked up again and landed on 444, down again and then randomly looked up and 222. It became a game to the point where I was just laughing in a relatively silent nail salon to myself at how weird it was.
So what does it all mean?
Whether you believe in messages or think synchronicities just coincidences, we all need reassurance to chill the f*ck out.
When I was in Cannes, some of my colleagues over drinks asked me “ What is your 5 year goal or plan?” Not my favorite question. I could tell them about the activities that I’d like to do for myself that I feel comfortable sharing with you like writing a book, hiking in Patagonia, diving in Raja Ampat, starting a business. Sometimes, your colleagues are not going to be your best hype people.
But, I decided to hit them with the deep deep truth.
I told them that I don’t have them anymore.
Sure, I have things I would love to do like diving and hiking in places. But real plans and goals? Not really at this point. I’m trying to move through the next few years of my life trusting the flow and moving towards the things that feel right.
I finally just recovered from intense professional burnout and I’ll be damned if I take another turn around that again.
So far, in my life all the best things have been things I never could have predicted or even wanted for myself.
Similarly, all of the thunderstorms I had to weather popped up more like tornados in my path and somehow I walked through them.
I’m gonna try less planning goals like a good ex-hustle culture late millennial and more trusting. What I do for a job isn’t the end all be all, but just like I share in Feng Shui — there are seasons for everything. Then there are exoskeletons to shed when they are too tight, but getting to that process isn’t put on a timeline we can really predict.
I think we need directions and desires, but where is the space for the magic to happen and noticing if we hold on too tight to what we think we know is best for us. We can make logistical plans to get us to spaces where we hope we can make more space in our life.
Lately, it feels like the whole world is holding its breath right now, while at the time yelling out warnings and cries. I feel both paralyzed in my brain and sense of the world, but thrust forward by so much movement and change.
That’s why even though these numbers or noticing don’t mean much, the meaning I make from them is grounding.
It’s like a little inside joke I’m having with myself. And these days, we all need it.
xx Bailey
Updates
Holy Grail T-shirt hunt is still happening even if I haven’t fully updated the notion. I was kindly gifted a replacement t-shirt from LESET after the neckline shriveled in the wash and I have to say I keep reaching for it. I’ve tried on extras from Old Navy that were recommended and it was a big nope. The ones from Uniqlo that I had high hopes for are not living up to them so I have to expand my search and will be purchasing a buck mason t-shirt and the COS this week to give them the test. But this quite the process and now I’m realizing that perhaps there are two different types of holy grail white t-shirts. At this point I'm kind of sick of wearing white shirts even though I reach for one pretty much everyday.
New purchase: I did something that I rarely do and I was both influenced and then pressured by a deal but I think it’s gonna be worth it. I got the Medicare Age R Pro device in a bundle so it was way less than the original price. It has micro current, an airshot function like a microneedling, and an electro current to help your face products absorb better. I’m not a beauty influencer but I will be having my wedding most likely top of next year and this is my beauty investment. Also, I’m also terrified of jowels so let’s see!
Reading: The Boy, the Mole, the Fox, and the Horse by Charlie Mackesy. I got gifted this by a friend who got it gifted for her 3 year old and she said she read it and she cried. Every time I read this, I tend to cry and it just feed some part of me and it might feed a part of you too.
In the Tabs
I usually have about 200 tabs open on my phone so I wanted to start a series where I share 3 random ones! haha
This dress from Target. So I saw an interesting video about how younger people see skirts that are cut on the bias are seen as “older” where as poorly cut satin is part of a performance of youth as being undone. Always people in the comments were talking about how they randomly saw this target dress and thought it was like 1930s gorgeousness in store. Now I’m curious and wana see too.
This restaurant in London, Humo. I think it's got 1 Michelin star. I met a woman who’s boyfriend is one of the head chefs and it seem very cool where all of their food is cooked over a fire in the restaurant with different woods. It’s apparently theatrical and delicious and I want to go next time I’m in town.
I haven’t really been talking about it but I’m experiencing hair thinning since my weight loss and PCOS diagnosis and trying to figure out what the heck to do. I got my eyebrows microbladed in London by my favorite girly and she said some of her clients get this rather intense thing called PRP where they like process your own blood to get the platelets into a plasma and they inject it back into your scalp or skin for a facial. It sounds intense, but if these hair vitamins and serums don’t work I worry I’ll have to shell out a pretty penny to give it a try in New York somewhere.
Now you can see we really cover the gambit in the tabs.
Make sure to comment the number of your address like 517, 12, apt 4B or whatever and let’s test out the numerology side!
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